I know, it’s been forever…. my bad.
Back in October, I received an internship for a writing position and just recently, I was promoted to full-time. I write all day long and the last thing I’ve wanted to do is write when I get home. However, this has been an extremely exciting/interesting time in our lives that I felt was worth sharing. Also, most of you have all sort of asked what the heck we’re doing, so here you go!
My current life season has been spiritually challenging but just recently, has turned immensely rewarding. Not that we all don’t face difficulties but this has sort of felt like I’ve been treading water in the middle of a hurricane.
As most of you are aware, my husband plays professional football in Vancouver, BC. Honestly, football is the worst. I used to be the BIGGEST Boston sports fan but ever since we started dating my views on professional sports has taken a 180. I love each sport and their intricacies but when it turns pro all the fun and games, are over. You may love football, but one day it’s not going to love you back. We’re both feeling this immensely. Anyway, so he’s a free agent in about ten days and our future is completely unknown. Would we love to stay in Vancouver? Absolutely. Do we have ANY idea where we’ll end up? Nope! Yeah, I know…. I sound like a whiny wife, I get it but whatever. On top of this uncertainty, he’s also launching a startup. Yeah, he’s a very driven and motivated man not wanting to play football forever….. soooooooo life is just a little nuts.
With all of this uncertainty in our life, I’ve just been in this mindset the last few months focused primarily on the future and myself. Waiting to see where we’re going to live. Waiting to see how Craig’s new business will pan out. Waiting for photography internships. Waiting to be promoted in my job. Waiting to see where we should purchase a house. Desperately waiting for God to bless us with a baby. Waiting for our investments to payout. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting…….
My days have been spent thinking of just the future that I was basically just drifting throughout my days, completely disengaged with society. Let alone just thinking primarily about myself, which is the WORST WAY TO LIVE. (Semi ironic that I want to focus less on myself but yet, I’m siting here writing about myself) LOL I’m a hermit by nature but I had unknowingly had taken it to a whole new level. I felt that if I focused primarily on our options unknown, somehow I could control their outcomes. Ridiculous, right? Well, the Lord really opened my eyes recently and it has been such a blessing.
I had been so focused on myself and Craig that I rarely noticed the people around me, let alone engaged in life with them. This dawned on me in our first night of our new community group in our church. The women in my group were so transparent and wanting to get to know me, that a huge wave of guilt hit me like a brick wall. I hadn’t gotten to really know a new person in months……… I started working in a new job with people from ALL over the world and yet, I would come into work and clock out completely disengaged.
I’m so thankful that the holy spirit interveined because what a disappointing and non-christ-like way to live.
We’re alllllllllllll waiting for something in our lives but when I stopped primarily focusing on what I was waiting for, each day has become far more beautiful. However, I still REALLY appreciate Fridays and the weekends but I now try to use each day to impact someone. Whether it’s a simple smile or giving up your seat on transit. I’m consciously attempting to live each day in the moment and not taking it for granted. I just realized if I’m still living, there’s work to be done. Definitely, not preaching to anyone. More of a reminder to myself, that I will probably have to do every single day of my life lol. I’m a Christian by proclamation and in that, the life I live is not my own. It’s not for my pleasures or what I can get out of it. Not that God doesn’t want me to live an enriched life but a life less focused on myself, I’ve found to be far more enriched and purposeful than the “stuff” that I think I want.
So, friends, I hope this post gave you something to ponder. Whatever season of life you may be in, just take it day by day. Honestly, moment by moment. Enjoy it, no matter if you’re on a sandy beach or braving through a rough storm. I know that I’m trying to. It’s not an overnight thing, I have to wake up every morning and remind myself what I’m living for but it has been such a blessing. Things will happen when they happen and God’s timing is always perfect. (Another thing I have to remind myself on an hourly basis)
You know what though? We’re all in it together.
I’d love to hear what you are up to since I’ve been living under a rock for so long. Shoot me a text (I no longer have my NM number), a message on social media, or even an email… Whatever, I’d love to catch up and hear what is going on in your life.
Sorry that this post is all over the place but I basically just wanted to jot things down that have been scrambling through my mind and update you all on what is going on with us. Leave any thoughts you have below!
Love you friends and sorry for being a disconnected Dbag,
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